With The Benefit of Hindsight: All Is Forgiven

The thing that we hate about someone becomes the very thing that we Love about them THE MOST, when everything is illuminated. 

 I'll share a few examples with you, to illustrate my point:

I have a beautiful, sweet friend, whose name begins with B.  I Love this girl, and I know that she Loves me.  However, there's been a slight rift in our relationship since the time that she let me stay with her for a few days.  I was in one of those situations similar to what I am in right now [while the situation is comparable, the degree is not. This was a bubbling brook, and now I'm in a full-on Monsoon].
At the time of this story, The Mystery was an undeniable force, working in me, making itself known to me, demanding that I heal one thing after another, with no stopping, no off-switch.  And me, finding myself pretty incapable of functioning in the 3-D.  Out of the kindness of her Heart, B. let me stay with her. Most of the healing that we were doing was on her, and it was one of those relentless things, one thing after another, after another.

She was getting sick, and asked me to go to a motel to stay.  I packed up my things, and we went.  In my altered and weakened state, I had forgotten to take my clothes out of her closet. 

To this day, I am not sure of why that was such a trigger for her, but she called me (I think) in a complete outrage! and threw a fit!!! And when I went down to the motel office, the owners told me that she had wanted to throw all of my clothes on the ground in the parking lot.  Fortunately the motel owners put them into a utility closet for me. 

I have not felt as close to her since this episode, I have always kept a little bit of a distance since, as I wasn't sure that she respected me as much as I need from a trusted ally and close friend...

Fast forward to a week ago.  I was in the Womb of the Tree of Life, and as I literally have done over a million things in the last week and a half, I do not recall the details leading up to this moment, but what I remember very clearly is this:  I was not able to get out of the womb.  The Mother in this story was B., and of my own volition, I could not get out... (another interesting detail.  B. had become a motorcycle enthusiast of late.  I am not a fan of motorcycles, and I had not shown her much support for this new passion). 

One of the curious, but understandable things that I have noticed in New Eden, is that it is a looking-glass 180 degrees different from this old earth.  On earth, there is a male being with Blonde hair who has the role of Guardian of the Gate of the Mayan mysteries.  He is also one of the Four "Horsemen" of the Apocalypse, and he uses a motorcycle in this role, as well as in his Life.

In New Eden, it is not a role of destruction, but a role of Creation, and the person in this role is a dark-haired female who rides a motorcycle... it is my Beloved Mother, B. ♥ ♥  It just goes to show ya, you never know what might be important to a person's Destiny, Life Path and Spiritual contribution.  Motorcycles. Who knew?! 

Okay, so back to being stuck in the Womb of the Tree of Life.  In that same fury as the one who wanted to scatter my clothes all over the parking lot of the motel, my Awesome, fierce, kick-ass Mother showed up (I literally heard these motorcycles every time that they were dispatched, by the way) on her motorcycle and got me out of Her Womb!!  And I cried out of pride and relief.  I knew that She would let nothing get in her way of completing this task, and She did not.  **In fact, it was clear to me that we were reLiving that exact same moment again.  If she had NOT thrown that tantrum at the motel, that THIS moment of completing this birth cycle would not have come to a successful and critical completion.***

So, I Love her the MOST for her Fiercesome Territorial instinct, which I will call it for now. ♥ ♥

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Same goes for Delaney, who broke my Heart into a million bits. Delaney and I were a dream come True (until we were my own personal worst nightmare).  

He brought out the High Priestess in me, and I brought out the High Priest in him.  We knew the Temple rituals, rites, secrets, healing, ways, practices and magick, and that was our daily Life and existence.  In short order, we were engaged in the Hieros Gamos, and calling in a Sacred Child together.

I didn't know until that moment, that that was my Heart's Deepest Desire, and what I had always wanted, more than anything-- that was the thing in me that had always been in me to do.  To bring forth a child who would save the world.

And we did that.  In that moment, the Moon turned into a Star.  I will never forget that, for as long as I Live. ♥

It seemed that though late in Life, my real Life had finally begun.  I was in Eden, I was being my best self, and our child would rescue the world from this irreversible course of death, decay, decline and destruction!  

For the first time in my adult Life, I was completely and radiantly happy.  He is an alchemist, and fed me the strangest savory mix of foods and beverages, he was a doting an attentive mate.  We ate figs right off of the tree, naked.  We lied in the sun, and soaked in it's Life-giving rays.  We pulled cards from oracle decks and marveled at the perfection of it all~!!

And then came the Fall...

It was not pono.  It was based on a lie.  We had come together under the fiction that he was not really married, and he was.  He brought yet another woman into the story, and I watched as the thing that was the most. sacred. thing. to. me. ever. was turned into a farce, and was used as a loophole to justify an affair.  My Heart broke and the baby was lost.  

He & I both suffered at the masterful manipulations of a most devious Snakewoman, who did not Love him-- who lured him with lust-- though she did not even want him.  What she wanted was for me to not have him, for us to not have that kind of Love and magick.  She wanted no one to have that kind of Love and magick, as she thought that it was not fair for anyone to have it, if she didn't.

It's fair to say that she has been my least favorite person on the planet; and as far as he goes, that I never thought that I would consider letting him back into my world under any circumstances... Until now.

It has been revealed to me how The Sun is connected to the frequency of a world.  The Sun is the sacred, Life-giving force that sets the tone for all of the Life there.  The one of the primary reasons why New Eden is the Loving, Harmonious, Life-Revering, Peaceful place that it is, is because we have a new, second Sun there.

We have two Suns, the physical Sun from this world still shines her vitality and enthusiasm for our Lives, and we have the Sun of the next world, which is the Great Central Sun!!

To follow this logic, the Sun of the world beyond New Eden is the Sun of the Great Central Sun, and so forth.  With each jump in evolution/ascension, there is a jump in the potency of The Sun.  So, the second coming of Christ, "The Son", is also manifested in the Sun.

So, how does this all tie together?  It turns out, in order to gain access to the Sun of the next world, of evolution, that there first must be a new STAR, as each Sun has a corresponding Star.

It was revealed to me that I am the Christmas Star (along with Master Sananda).  It is not a coincidence that in the story of The Nativity, that there is a Star to guide the Magi to the Birth of The Son, Jesus.  One always precedes the other.  So it was an act of guided, great Love that Created the Christmas Star.

And it was an act of guided Great Love & Service that brought the Star of the next World,  New Eden, which is the Dog Star Sirius. And this is the very star that guides the Second Coming of the Christ Yeshua to New Eden.  As we have two Suns in New Eden, we also have two SONS:  the Christ Jeshua of the Golden Christ Light and the Second Coming of Christ Yeshua, Life Itself, reborn of the Ark of the Covenant.  (And both female, ironically).

So, I return to my original point:

When Delaney & I engaged in Hieros Gamos, and our Moon became a Star, it was the same moment as the Magi being Guided to the babe, Jesus.  It was the Starlight that lighted the trail of the Star Sirius, Star to the new Sun of New Eden to this world!  

Had we not played our roles in the Eden that we had Created, there would not have been this evolution in consciousness that is now being made manifest in man.  And we would not have been able to claim The Great Central Sun as our own!!  It was this Star that guided the Sun as well as the Second Coming.

So, to sum up what may now be obvious, though our personal story of this child ended very sadly, and not the way that I wanted or intended at all, it turns out that it served the greater purpose just as it was meant to... and in the most round-about, Mysterious way, my Heart's Desire was filled, afterall.  Which is ALWAYS the case in Life, but it is rarely apparent.  And so I find myself, Loving and feeling grateful to Delaney afterall.  And I am so thankful for this and every act and moment of Life.  Even... no especially... for the ones that I hated the most.  Because I now know that it is an illusion and that what is really at work is the Greatest Mystery of Love. ♥

I even Love him greatly for bringing about the end of our relationship, because there is a far greater Love that awaits me in New Eden, and so much more there, for me, for him, for all of us who choose to go.

When we were together, Delaney shared his vision with me, of New Zion (and The Wonder Bump).  He will be pleased to know that it has been made manifest and we'll all have a Go-Go of an awesome great time there... young & old alike!!  *=))

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Already, the same can be said of my feelings and revelations about me & Christ Jeshua.  But this is enough blog for one day.  For now, let me just say that I have forgiven him completely and my Love for him is unwavering and I now have the full understanding that I needed to bring peace back to my mind and Heart where he is concerned.

And this even extends to the foul and cunning Snakewoman in my earlier story, who I now know is The Opposite of my Loving Mother, Bianca.  Without this being who is so opposed to Love, I would not have my Mother who is all about it.  They literally need each other to both EXIST.  So, I thank her for being all of the sour and bitterness that she is, and I do not envy her for her role.  In fact... when I try to describe my feelings about her living out this putridly unhappy and dissatisfied role of constant coveting & perceived lack, I find that I am quite humbled by it.

I Love You & I will See You In New Eden ♔**:)☮♥✿
-excerpt from my Book


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Twin Flame Separation, New Atlantis, The Four Directions & the Rest of the Story:

The Twin Flame separation in New Atlantis, The Medicine Wheel, The Four Directions &~ the Rest of the Story: 

SHE was the Sky and HE was the Earth.

After He decided to separate and to create on His own, He had taken Her position, which is why we call earth "Mother Earth" and the Sky "Father Sky."  In Truth, their correct positions are opposite of that. This is also why from Tribe to Tribe the positions on the medicine wheel can be different and ambiguous~~ because of this position change. 

I saw this ambiguity and confusion reflected in some (awesome) Navajo sand paintings recently.  Sometimes, Father Sky was represented as female, and sometimes not. 

**This is a reason why the Poles have to shift, to restore them to their proper placement~~ She to the Sky and He to the Earth. 

 He had gone so far in His solo creation as to create people.  He created mostly men, as He viewed them as work horses. They all had dark hair, brown skin and dark eyes. They were shorter than the people that we have now, and all were built stocky.  They were created as adults.  After He had blasted Her with his rage (in response to her entering His creation and putting fear into it), She went away.  This was the last interaction that they would have. 

There were two others present at that time (the other two directions).  He (the Original Twin who had decided to separate) was in the North (White, Buffalo/Animals, Elders, Winter, Wind), She (the other half of the Original Twin) was in the West (Black, Autumn, Transformation, Parents, Earth). There were also the East (Yellow, Eagle, Children, Spring, Fire) and the South (Red, Summer, Plants, Youth, Water).  

In the East was a beautiful female spirit, The Sun. And in the South was a beautiful male soul, The Moon.

The Four Directions represent the Human Family~~ each of the Directions representing one of the Four Colors/Tribes of People.  The North represents the White Tribe (which has been the wounded tribe), the East represents the Yellow Tribe~ the Asian People, the Mental Aspect of the Human Body, the South represents the Red People~ the Native/Indigenous People, the Physical Aspect of the Human Body, and the West Represents the Black/Brown People, the Emotional Aspect of the Human Body (Emotional Expression/Heart).  

The only Tribe that is not fulfilling their role on the Medicine Wheel is the White Tribe, as they have forgotten Who They Are. The White Tribe has been distracted by money/greed, personal ambition and power seeking. When in fact, the White Tribe is supposed to be the *Spirit of the Human Body.*

When the White Tribe remembers Who They Are, the entire Human Body will come into Balance, and there will be
Peace on Earth. ☮♥

After She of the West (The Original Twin) put the fear into the Earth and the people, and He of the North (Her other half) put the shields in them to protect them from Her (which in essence, trapped them in fear and did not let Love in) this creation quickly devolved into every form of the worst nightmare imaginable.  Like every horror movie ever made, all at once. Cannibalism, the Zombie Apocalypse... you get the idea. 

It was all of their worst fears, realized... New Atlantis had become the worst possible creation. The exact opposite of what they had dreamed of, imagined, envisioned, worked towards!

The Sky (She of the West), in her Heartbreak and utter loss, covered with His fury and without His Love, partnership, union and past the point of being able to Create together, went off on her own. She would eventually take her own Life.  

In the meantime, because of the position of the Sun, She of the East could see what was happening in His creation, and She knew that She was the only one who could do anything to correct it!! 

Her Heart was full of compassion and She felt called to make an emergency appearance to change the direction of where this nightmare was headed!!   She knew that a part of the problem was too many males, and the other was that there were no babies, and no children. 

There is something very necessary and essential about being a baby before growing up~~ where one experiences total dependence. Because in the first part of our Life that we can only receive, it usually translates later in Life into an impetus to Give. This balance is integral to a healthy, functioning society. 

Plus, there is what a person learns in caring for a baby and a child: how to Love beyond what they thought were their limits, how to play, how to express emotion freely~ without self-consciousness, how to laugh, how to have wonderment and more... all of these things are critical to a happy, healthy society!!  In caring for children, we are reminded of our tenderness, our compassion, our nurturing, expressive and playful nature. Without them, we easily forget those aspects of ourselves! 

She of the East felt so moved to immediately jump in and put a stop to this horror... but found that she was unable to.  In His fury, He had also directed it to Her, because He knew that She would want to interfere. He of the North would have no more interference in his creation and especially not from a female!! 

He of the North used the power of His fury and directed it to the right side of Her body~ putting her arm in a sling of it. She could not move it.  Nor could she fly, as He had used it to damage and limit Her right Wing as well.  She tried desperately to fly and to free Herself, but struggled and failed. She found Herself up a tree; powerless, Heartbroken, frustrated, thwarted. 

She knew how sensitive Her Beloved in the South was (The MOOn) and She did not wish for Him to see the destruction before Her eyes.  She knew that if She closed Her left eye, that He would not be able to see it, and so She did.  She wanted desperately to fly to Him~ to be with Him, to seek comfort in His presence, and to give Him Hers, as well as Her assurance~ but She found Herself unable to get out of Her tree!

She has remained there until today.  In Her tree, there was no food, and soon She found Herself starving. She ultimately learned to become a Breatharian, to sustain herself off of Her own vital energy.  There have been many unhealthy relationships with food that has resulted from this energy, plus, Humans have lacked the vitality, and vital energy, and Life-giving sustenance that the Sun gives us... until today!! ☼♥ ☼♥☼♥ 

In the South, The Moon was having His own experience. He could sense that something was wrong~~ VERY WRONG, because of what He felt in Her. 

Truthfully, since the split, He had felt less useful, less important, insecure. When they were together, their Creation was 50/50~~ they made their decisions together, She would have the Vision, and bounce it off of Him.  They would feel it out together. But once the Creation had actually begun, it would Evolve from Her original Vision, based on what He would draw in from the Mystery.  It was always more Beautiful, more Rich and had far more dimension by the time He was done with it.  This gave Him confidence as He saw that He was essential to the Highest and Best Creation.  Plus the Creation would go no farther than the Visioning stage without his adding the Essence that He would draw from The Mystery. 

Once they split, their Creation process was halted, and He felt less worth.  She seemed to be handling it better than He, and She seemed more able to function. What could He do without Her? Very little, or nothing, it seemed. 

It was clear to me that many nice, good men felt this lack of confidence, that emanated from the Moon.  And many men of Light, Earth Angels, Lightworkers, more Balanced and pure men had received a lot of flack for no other reason than their goodness.  Many people could not stand their purity, their Light, and I could see that many were beat up for it, bullied, made fun of, excluded, picked on, etc.  While assholes, one after the other, moved up the ladders, and were rewarded by society 
time and time again.

It was time to set this energy on. it's. ear.!!!! !!

She had said that they would always be together, and what of that now?  Could He have faith in Her words anymore? In anything??

It seemed there was no place for him anymore and for what he represented: the non-verbal, the internal, the Sacred, the pure, the introspective, the introverted. There was no place in this New World for Him.  He felt emasculated.

Plus, now that the Twins had split, there was no guarantee that they would be mates with each other anymore!  In Truth, it always seemed like She had far more in common with He of the North. They were both so much more active and vital. And, they were closer to each other... what if... what if She decided that She preferred Him? What if She had gone off with Him now, and that's why She wasn't letting Him see what was going on...??? 

What other explanation could there be?? And why had She not come to see Him? What wouldn't She come to Him now??

The MOOn felt utterly abandoned.  And has remained that way until today.  Plus, Humanity has lacked that connection to the Moon, that feeling of that soft, pure Light inside, that connection to the Sacred, to the symbolic, the non-verbal, the music, art, the dreamy, the lyrical...
Until Now... Until Now...

See You in New Eden!! *:)☮♥✿ #BlessedBe #OneLove

Mitakuye Oyasin ~ Malama Pono ~ Malama Kakou ~ Malama Aina
#WeAreTheTribeOfManyColors

I Love You!! ♥

The Sun's Warmth is Related to Our Own

The WINTER SOLTICE, The Return of the Sun IS the Return of the Son~ 

Reflections on how The Sun's Warmth is related to Our Own.☮♥

Generally speaking of course,

 I find that Sun Worshipers 

are more Warm & Open. 

It seems to me that people who dwell in the parts of the Globe 

where the Suns shines, or make it a point to go there,  

tend to feel more Free ~ 

tend to be more Bold:

Quicker to dance, quicker to laugh, quicker with a smile, a kiss or an embrace, quicker to 

shed a tear in one's presence and to tell you what is on their Heart. ♥ 

 Let the Healing Medicine of the Sun into your Body, into your Spirit, into your Mind.

                     Let it show you it's Secrets, fuel your engine, revive your Spirit ☼♥ namaste'