The Final Revelation : UNTHRONED

 I found something very important this morning. It's incredibly disturbing and painful, so much so, that I put it off for 45 years in this Lifetime, and over 2000 since the time of Christ.  Because I couldn't stand to face the memory of it.  

I understand, that you won't be able to either, and believe me, NO ONE understands better than Me.

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I could feel some old wounds from my time in the cave, right after our daugter Sarah had been taken from me.

I had not been shown the rest of the story until now.

I have known for three months now that there was a possibility that Jeshua had survived the crucifixion.  That information rearranged by DNA, and I did not know for sure until today. 

What I was shown was that He DID survive the crucifixion. Joseph of Arimathea, Mother Mary, Marie Salome and I took him down from the cross before he departed.

The Maries & I used ointments and oils (including Belladonna) to restore him. 

We were separated, out of fear of my safety and the safety of the Baby (still in utero). We knew that our child, Sarah, was important to turn the current tide of Oppression, and we knew that it was imperative to keep our Bloodlines going. ♥

Joseph of Arimathea assisted me in escaping, as our Lives were truly in danger.  I have only seen myself in a cave, no matter how many times I have revisited this scene, I still do not know where I was, but Jeshua and I were separated. 

What I know for sure is that I was alone, cold, starving afraid for my Life and pregnant.  After Sarah was born~~ she was the *most remarkable* child!  She truly did have the best of both Jeshua and I~~  Full of the magic of Unicorns, Flowers, Fairies, Precious Stones, The Mer People~~ everything that was delightful and awe-inspiring!!  She had red hair and the fairest skin.  While I was so happy and proud to be her Mother, and I was so sad and despairing to not be able to provide for her!!

When she was 2 1/2 years of age, three men came to the cave. They claimed to be government officials.  One of the men was tall and wore a tall hat.  He did most of the talking.  I could tell that their intentions were not pure, especially one who had dark hair, fair skin and a mustache.  They took Sarah from me under the guise of child protection, and though I fought with all of my might, I was no physical match for the three of them.  She was gone.

Margaret Starbird knows me best, when she calls me God's saddest daughter. 

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I have known this for some time too, for about two years now. Recently, I had been getting messages that it was time to know the rest of the story.  When things that are so close to the bone, so painful and so deep in one's Heart, sometimes we need to nibble at them instead of confronting them all at once. 

Because Jeshua and I shared so much more than just a physical relationship, because we had done the deepest spiritual work together that is possible, our ties went into my very DNA and his. Our Lives were bound together in multiple light bodies, in several levels of my womb~~ we Truly Were One.  I trusted him implicitly  with my Body, Mind, Soul, My Life & My Destiny!!  I had given him everything that one person can give to another.  He was my everything.  To this day, I have given him everything still.  I have never fully recovered from the trauma and losses that I experienced in that Lifetime.

It would not have been such a problem, except for the fact that it turns out that Jeshua was not my Twin Flame, (which I did not know until today).  What I now know is that My Twin Flame is Adam from The Garden of Eden (now called Adama in New Eden). I didn't know that two people~~ Jeshua & I or anyone, could experience the Heights of Spiritual Alchemy on so many levels without being Twin Flames!!!  It never occurred to me as a possibility, if someone would have challenged the notion that he was not my perfect match, my other Self... well, I would have bet my Life on it!!

It is a shocking revelation to me that Jeshua was NOT my Twin. With all that we shared within The Mystery and without, I did not know that two people could have so much closeness, deep intertwining and experience such heights of Destiny and Ascension without being one another's actual Match.

Yesterday, though I desperately needed food in my system in order to try and calm it down some, after the glorious, yet brutal shocks of: transforming into The Tree of Life, energetically returning to The Garden of Eden and reconnected with my Beloved Adam and the real doozy~~ The Star Sirius finally returning to Her place through the vessel of The Holy Grail which is my Body, I could eat very little and keep even less down.

My stomach was full of foam and acid, my head and neck felt like they may explode or cement into absolute rigidity.  The amount of energy that was moving through me was equivalent to 836,000 Light Years!!  I was in a very bad way.

I dug in to discover what happened after Sarah was taken from me.
I understood what exactly it was that my stomach could not digest:

***   *   ***   *   ***   *   ***Sarah was gone.  I could not overpower the men who had taken her.  In my  I was weak from malnutrition, stress and dehydration.

I cried out desperately for Jeshua to help me and I knew and could feel that he could feel me imploring him to come to me and to help me!!  Surely, he could tell how distraught I was, how desperate I was and that he was urgently needed!!!  I screamed for him, I cried out for him and 
he. did. not. come. 

He did not come, and I could not understand it...!!  As if being separated from my Sacred Beloved was not enough!  Again, I was experiencing the most crippling of grief.  And the most devastating loss.  Most of the time, I felt that she was alive.  I did not hear from her for 15 1/2 years.  It was excruciating to imagine what she might have gone through, what she still might be going through.  I had no peace.  She was a very talented Indigo Child, and when she was 18, she telepathically sent me a message to let me know that she was alive.  She felt I had completely failed her and wanted nothing to do with me.  I never saw either one of them again.  And while my life continued, I was never the same, there were too many parts inside of me that had died.

Jeshua was alive and well, somewhere else.  He could feel that I needed him, I was crying out for his desperately, and I could feel that he could feel me and he knew that I needed help.

He had begun a new Life with another woman. I could feel him having sex with her, and it made. me. sick!!!!!

The other woman in his Life was the one who is now the same woman who is currently with My Adam.

Jeshua was an easy-going kind of dude, and influenceable to the whims of what others wanted.  She did not wish to release him and he let her have her way!

I have handed these revelations up to the Prime Creator to release us all from the karma of them.

I know that they have been preventing me in receiving the support and Love that I need.  At last, the saga is over for me, for women, families, for children, and we can Live the happy, free, full Life that God intended!!

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After The Crucifixion

On the Feast Day of The Magdalene -- Part One of Two

Time for this Healer to Heal Thyself.

I've got to clear myself before I can move ahead. I have known that there was something in me that had a sharp edge~~ an unwavering opinion, a righteous anger, a scrutinizing and heavy judgement... and it is time to go! 

I know that I have needed it until now to Know all that I Know, and to Do all that I have Done. I couldn't have recognized all of the pain and all of the twists of its manifestations that I have had to clear if I couldn't See it. To see it, I had to have something in me that was a mirror of it. I thank this energy for it's service until this point, and I shall release it to Christ Consciousness with blessings and gratitude. ♔✿

I don't yet know the specific nature of the energy that I am dealing with, but I feel that it has been here for a long time-- holding me back from my full and wholly Loving expression. I now have a sense of it. It has peaked and is making itself known to me. It is tinny and tight. I can feel it acutely, so it is time to clear it.

I've been getting messages the last few days about the time of Christ.✞ I observe at on-going junctures that my Journey this time is retracing the steps at that time again; this time with the knowledge that I can unwind the pain, forgiving the hurts and all that was lost. Forgiving everything that went wrong. I walk it knowing that it is time for nothing to remain but the Light, the Christ Consciousness, the Love. I walk it Knowing that this time is the completion of the Perfect Work that we started over 2000 years ago.

It took me a long time before I knew, that it wasn't supposed to go that way after the crucifixion~~ my Life in danger (while pregnant) me destitute, unsupported, cold, starving, slandered, maligned...
and the worst thing. The very worst thing that could have happened, happened. Trying to raise a daughter on nothing, the most beautiful, charmed, enchanting red headed 2 1/2 year old that anyone ever saw... three men took her from me (their intentions were not pure, and I could see it. And I was powerless to stop them). She was an Indigo and I didn't hear from her for 15 and a half years. I sensed that She was still alive, but sometimes I knew it more than others... there were times when I thought that I was just kidding myself.

When She was 18, She telepathically sent me a message and told me that She was Alive. That was all that She said. She was so angry at me, so hurt, She wanted nothing to do with me. I rejoiced in the knowledge that She Lived, and I mourned our fate, our separation. I despaired thinking of what all She might have endured.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. We had not set it up that way.  We were so powerful, so conscious in our Creation, so Aligned~~ how could everything had gone so horribly wrong???

It wasn't until in the last few years that I was shown the answer. There was a woman in town who wanted to be a part of our work, felt entitled to because of her spiritual power. She put a curse on my womb (in her jealousy) while we were working as a circle.  The curse affected all of the Essence Women who were there, as well as Christ (not as much).

I was not aware of the curse at that time, and in my ignorance and deepest hurt, anger and grief, I blamed Christ.  I blamed Him as an abandoner Husband and Father. And I blamed God. After my pure devotion and service and belief, THIS is how I was repaid???? 

After I found the curse and removed it, my Forgiveness began, and my relationship with The Christed One and God rapidly advanced, healed and brought a lot more joy & peace into my Life.

I have not revisited the time of Christ✞ since April, when I read half of The Jesus Papers.  It is finally time for me to Know & Re-member the Rest of the Story.

Where I left off, Joseph of Arimathea was making arrangements with Pontius Pilot to rescue Jeshua. Joseph's brilliant plan was to allow the Roman's their public crucifixion, but then to remove Jeshua from the cross before He had died. Was it possible? I feel that yes, it was.

This was a wild revelation for me, and being so swept up in my own grief, desperation, survival, etc., I had only seen things from my own point of view.  I am leaning more now towards believing that that there is more to this tale than I have remembered.

I know that ultimately, there is a time when I am rescued and returned to the Loving care of the Merovingians in France, and I feel that I am at the point right before that moment of Grace~~
may it be so.


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